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Wow! You guys, I don’t even have words. You never cease to amaze me with your generosity & support. If I’m being 100% honest when I was approached about doing an egg hunt I was nervous. I thought there’s no way people are going to pay to bring their kids to hunt eggs when there are free ones all over the place, but let’s do it!
With anything we do, I stress for weeks, which leads me to procrastinate because if I ignore it until I can’t then I don’t have to worry for so long, right? When I say procrastinate, I mean we were still stuffing eggs about an hour before everyone showed up because that’s my life (insert laughing emoji).
I worry so much about how people will react, if it will be what they expected, will we have enough, will everyone have fun, will people think what we’re doing is silly, will everyone be happy with how it went, you know all the normal things (yes I’m saying that sarcastically). My worry leads me to second guess what I’m doing & then I tell myself it’s ridiculous to even try to do these things. I probably hold myself back from so many opportunities because of my fear, which is a whole different topic.
Our goal as a family has always been to just give back to our community. To encourage people to do the small things because our time is so short. To remind people to love on all of your family members & never walk away without reminding them that you love them. To show people that it’s okay to have your joy & grief collide. To remind everyone our time is short, so make the most of it. Our goal isn’t to have sympathy or look like we’re so strong or to try and show boat Coopers death. We just want to give back in anyway we can and through this, our hearts are healed a little more each time.
But, I worry more than I’d like to admit about how people will perceive what we’re doing. If people do think I’m trying to gain continued sympathy or if I talk about it too much or if people think I’m annoying for posting a million times about Christmas families or how much I miss him. I literally second guess EVERY single move I make in life now (I’m hoping to write about this soon, I’m working with my counselor on this issue). And then, you guys show up & show me that it is, in fact worth it.
I expected maybe 20 people to show up today & when I walked out of the concession stand and saw the line into the parking lot, I froze. First, I wanted to cry. And then, I wanted to run & hide because I immediately panicked. Do we have enough? Are they going to like it? Are we crazy for doing this? Are the prizes going to be okay? I wanted to hide in a corner and cry because I was immediately overwhelmed with SO many emotions I didn’t know what to do. You guys, the overwhelming feeling of gratitude I feel when we do this & you guys continue to show up quite literally stops me in my tracks and I don’t know how to process it in the moment. You know that meme where the little girl is emotional and says “I take a nap right here”…that’s legit me. Everytime. Hence why my post is coming this late because I’ve been sleeping since I got home lol!
I can’t ever express how much the support we receive in honor of our child actually means. I never expected that so many people, new friends, old friends, family AND strangers would show up & support us the way you all did.
I don’t ever have words for this part. I can’t ever express our gratitude enough. Just know that we see each & every person that comes to support us & we are humbled each and every time. If only you could see inside my brain for a day (Maybe not…that could scare everyone away lol!). Then, maybe everyone would understand the gratitude I personally feel. The overwhelming joy & thankfulness & support I truly feel.
This journey isn’t an easy one. It’s one I struggle daily with, but these events remind me that we aren’t alone. These events give us something to look forward to during the harder times of the year & you guys showing up makes it worth it.
To our community, thank you. Thank you for continuing to support us. Thank you to everyone who showed up today. You all made this event so much more success than I could have ever imagined. Thank you, thank you, thank you from the bottom of our hearts for continuing to support us. Thank you isn’t enough but as I’ve said before it’s all I have. We are so grateful.
To my family, thank you for continuing to show up & take orders from me & make these events happen. You guys know this journey way more intimately than any of us would like but I couldn’t do any of this without you guys. I don’t tell you all enough how much I appreciate each of you! You all deserve an award for putting up with me ;)
To Michelle, thank you for seeing my vision & pushing me out of my comfort zone. You know I’d never have done this without you & I’ll never be able to express just how important you are in all of this! Thank you for being my friend, my supporter & my pusher 😂.
Same time next year, who’s in?
-Kendra
With anything we do, I stress for weeks, which leads me to procrastinate because if I ignore it until I can’t then I don’t have to worry for so long, right? When I say procrastinate, I mean we were still stuffing eggs about an hour before everyone showed up because that’s my life (insert laughing emoji).
I worry so much about how people will react, if it will be what they expected, will we have enough, will everyone have fun, will people think what we’re doing is silly, will everyone be happy with how it went, you know all the normal things (yes I’m saying that sarcastically). My worry leads me to second guess what I’m doing & then I tell myself it’s ridiculous to even try to do these things. I probably hold myself back from so many opportunities because of my fear, which is a whole different topic.
Our goal as a family has always been to just give back to our community. To encourage people to do the small things because our time is so short. To remind people to love on all of your family members & never walk away without reminding them that you love them. To show people that it’s okay to have your joy & grief collide. To remind everyone our time is short, so make the most of it. Our goal isn’t to have sympathy or look like we’re so strong or to try and show boat Coopers death. We just want to give back in anyway we can and through this, our hearts are healed a little more each time.
But, I worry more than I’d like to admit about how people will perceive what we’re doing. If people do think I’m trying to gain continued sympathy or if I talk about it too much or if people think I’m annoying for posting a million times about Christmas families or how much I miss him. I literally second guess EVERY single move I make in life now (I’m hoping to write about this soon, I’m working with my counselor on this issue). And then, you guys show up & show me that it is, in fact worth it.
I expected maybe 20 people to show up today & when I walked out of the concession stand and saw the line into the parking lot, I froze. First, I wanted to cry. And then, I wanted to run & hide because I immediately panicked. Do we have enough? Are they going to like it? Are we crazy for doing this? Are the prizes going to be okay? I wanted to hide in a corner and cry because I was immediately overwhelmed with SO many emotions I didn’t know what to do. You guys, the overwhelming feeling of gratitude I feel when we do this & you guys continue to show up quite literally stops me in my tracks and I don’t know how to process it in the moment. You know that meme where the little girl is emotional and says “I take a nap right here”…that’s legit me. Everytime. Hence why my post is coming this late because I’ve been sleeping since I got home lol!
I can’t ever express how much the support we receive in honor of our child actually means. I never expected that so many people, new friends, old friends, family AND strangers would show up & support us the way you all did.
I don’t ever have words for this part. I can’t ever express our gratitude enough. Just know that we see each & every person that comes to support us & we are humbled each and every time. If only you could see inside my brain for a day (Maybe not…that could scare everyone away lol!). Then, maybe everyone would understand the gratitude I personally feel. The overwhelming joy & thankfulness & support I truly feel.
This journey isn’t an easy one. It’s one I struggle daily with, but these events remind me that we aren’t alone. These events give us something to look forward to during the harder times of the year & you guys showing up makes it worth it.
To our community, thank you. Thank you for continuing to support us. Thank you to everyone who showed up today. You all made this event so much more success than I could have ever imagined. Thank you, thank you, thank you from the bottom of our hearts for continuing to support us. Thank you isn’t enough but as I’ve said before it’s all I have. We are so grateful.
To my family, thank you for continuing to show up & take orders from me & make these events happen. You guys know this journey way more intimately than any of us would like but I couldn’t do any of this without you guys. I don’t tell you all enough how much I appreciate each of you! You all deserve an award for putting up with me ;)
To Michelle, thank you for seeing my vision & pushing me out of my comfort zone. You know I’d never have done this without you & I’ll never be able to express just how important you are in all of this! Thank you for being my friend, my supporter & my pusher 😂.
Same time next year, who’s in?
-Kendra